I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what card I pull today, shall we?
The Two of Wands
leaving the nest
urge to discovery
The basic jist I’m getting from this card is that planning your next “big thing” can be beneficial – as in being ready to move on to next steps and plan the next big adventure. On the other hand, staying where things are currently can lead to boredom and frustration.
Lately I’ve felt stuck in a bit of a rut – my body has really not been cooperative. It’s like I’ve hit a wall with physical and occupational therapy. I’m still making progress, but that progress is very VERY slow. The last couple of days I’ve been trying to switch things up a bit. Even though I’m in pain from joints not being where they should always be, I’ve been trying to, for lack of better words, exercise my brain more by working on creative projects like this blog and with YouTube videos. The differences have been in how I’ve been planning that workload with being more careful to pace myself, and instead of working at my desktop with my favorite monitor, try editing from my ipad (especially when my fingers are sore) and from my laptop (even though the screen is much smaller). Sometimes I feel lost trying to plan what to do in a week because EDS is never consistent, but planning the day – sometimes just hour to hour has been beneficial so far. Sometimes it would be nice to plan things in greater advance, but it’s also been helpful to create a list of a few ideas and break that down into much much smaller pieces that can be done in 10 minute chunks. IDK where I’m really going with this, but that’s my reflection on this card for the day.
The card I pulled for today’s reflection comes from the deck The Key Tarot by Scarlet Ravenswood and Jamie Gold – thanks to my BFF and cousin-in-law extraordinaire, Dillon.