I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Today seems to be going pretty above average so far. I’ve actually done most of my basic hygiene self care, done some cardio, and cleaned a few things. I’m also looking forward to seeing some family this afternoon, so I think I’ll just do a guide spread again since I’ll need to head out relatively shortly.
Four of Water
I’m pretty sure I just had this card a few meditations ago, but it was reversed at the time. Let’s see what it brings us this time right side up.
Ahh yes, I remember this now. This card reminds us to stop seeking perfection with binary thinking and to love our flaws since they also make us into who we are – kind of like Kintsugi (the broken Japanese pottery that gets put back together with gold filling the cracks). This is something I used to need reminded of constantly, and I think I may actually finally be getting to the point of accepting it. It doesn’t ring absolutely true with me yet, but saying it doesn’t feel so starkly false like it used to. Do I find confidence in it yet? No, but I am warming up to self-belief, and I do definitely hold the value of feeling deserving now … which I think is a pretty big breakthrough.
This card was pulled from Ravynne Phelan’s Dreams of Gaia Tarot set which comes with its own guide book since it’s a bit of a cross between a standard and oracle deck.