I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Apparently this week is the week of me having very little to no motivation to function at all. I’m still trying to do some stuff anyways though even if it is the bare minimum of getting a shower and sitting upright for 20 minutes.
Fourteen of Air – Inverted
I already cut the ties with the people in my life who did use their knowledge and power for manipulation — and I’m weirdly still mourning those people. Generally when I am mourning from the loss of someone I lose my ability to concentrate for extended periods of time so that reading becomes almost impossible, I’ll have very little interest in anything, and I have to force myself to do anything. I think I’m in the process of healing since I just regained my sense of focus when it comes to reading, most of the time. Now I’m just waiting for things to start feeling like something again. In the meanwhile, I guess I’m navigating the doldrums.
This card was pulled from Ravynne Phelan’s Dreams of Gaia Tarot set which comes with its own guide book since it’s a bit of a cross between a standard and oracle deck.