My Meditation Journey | Episode 25

I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?

Well, I ended up going to an impromptu birthday part for one of my good friends yesterday. It was lovely. At 4am today I woke up in some of the worst pain I’ve had in years. I did just change medications, and I’m wondering if that might have something to do with it. I know I didn’t overdo it yesterday because I made sure to pace myself. Nothing else makes a whole lot of sense. Even with my prescriptions pain medications, writing this now is quite difficult because I’m hurting to the point of it being extremely distracting. Maybe today I should think about forms of distractions … provided I can even find a distraction big enough … which I’m not sure is possible.

Nine of Fire


This card mainly focuses on how knowledge when applied to daily activities can make things easier. I think I’m still in the process of learning what the different kinds of pain mean and where they typically come from. Today I reached out to one of my doctors who recently changed one of my medications that messes with my hormones … which we hoped would be in a good way … but based on how I’m feeling and not knowing how to match my symptoms with anything else I’m guessing might be messing with them in a bad way. I don’t always know the answers, but I generally have a pretty good idea of where to go to start to find them. And I’m glad I use my voice to try to find them – particularly when I’m barely functional. Hopefully that makes sense. It’s the most I can explain right now.

This card was pulled from Ravynne Phelan’s Dreams of Gaia Tarot set which comes with its own guide book since it’s a bit of a cross between a standard and oracle deck.

Published by Victoria Mendes

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