I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
I’m still very much on the “can’t even” train. Let me off of this thing.
Forty Two – The Stranger – Inverted
Trusting in Oneself
I got some rather bad news yesterday that another person I care about has cancer (at least it isn’t terminal this time I guess?). What really bothers me this time is that I’m not remotely in a place where I can help out because of my own health issues, and it all just makes me feel helpless, especially since they could really use some extra help. It just isn’t fair.
So, it’s rather amusing that l’ve pulled a card about the unknown. I already knew I have issues accepting the unknown in my life; I just prefer not to think about it, until it manages to slap me in the face. I need to learn that sometimes I just have to trust my instincts even if what my instincts are telling me what I don’t want to hear. I may not be able to help out in all the ways they need, but maybe what little I can do will be enough to be appreciated.
This card was pulled from Eric Maille’s The Paper Oracle Deck with Guide Booklet.