I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Doing anything lately seems to be taking a lot of willpower.
Forty – The Storm
Turbulence
Change
Disorganization
Once again I find myself thoroughly amused by the cards; I just set my ambient room noise to “thunderstorm” about five minutes before pulling this card. This card serves as a reminder that there are pros and cons to chaos. Today for instance, I woke up with a headache and had a feelings that today was going to be weird. Usually I would be rather annoyed by this, but I’ve been trying to work on setting small goals to be excited about. I was able to make myself some breakfast and meal prep a few lunches before my headache got worse. Because I’d had breakfast I could take some pain meds. While I waited for the meds to kick in I closed my curtains since I was getting light sensitive. Since closing the curtains didn’t help enough I decided to don an eye mask and listen to an audiobook. It’s not the kind of day I would have picked for myself, but it’s turning into a relaxation day whether I want it or not. Now I think I’ll stop writing since I’m starting to get light sensitive again.
This card was pulled from Eric Maille’s The Paper Oracle Deck with Guide Booklet.