I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Six – The Clouds
Lack of Clarity or Focus
The shenanigans continue! It’s been raining on and off all day today. To say that I have a tendency to feel lost in life and not know where I’m going with my future is an understatement. My therapist has been trying to get me to try a zoomed in approach instead of a zoomed out approach, as in focusing on intentions in the moment instead of worrying about where I’ll be eventually, to focus on living in the now. Also trying to file for disability or at least be recognized as disabled by the government is very confusing. On the plus side I think I found a law firm that may be able to help me with it, and the only way I would be paying them is with back pay from social security if they win my case — which is great because it means I’m not paying any expenses out of my pocket.
I guess the moral of my story today is, even if you feel super lost and confused and nothing makes sense, taking baby steps by focusing on what you can do in the moment can be a helpful practice to observe.
This card was pulled from Eric Maille’s The Paper Oracle Deck with Guide Booklet.