I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Eleven – The Broom
Working to Resolve Disagreements
Cleaning of Damage
Now to ponder the damage in my life that needs to be swept away … Over the past two weeks I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night or early (for me) in the morning. This used to be my normal years ago, being able to feel well rested on 6 to 7 hours of sleep. Not to say I didn’t have damage before, but I knew how to operate in it and cope at the time. Prior to my regular meditation sessions and this latest round of therapy I’ve felt completely lost. My body gave up in functioning properly in MULTIPLE ways; I had/have to learn to navigate those changes, and I think I’m finally on the right track to finding a sense of peace and fulfillment. I still have a bit of work to do with sweeping out all the cobwebs hiding in the corners, but I feel like in the past two weeks I’ve started to feel like myself again. I’m not constantly bickering with myself anymore; it still happens, but it isn’t constant. In between the medication, physical therapy, occupational therapy, braces, and mental therapy, I feel like I’m finally making progress.
This card was pulled from Eric Maille’s The Paper Oracle Deck with Guide Booklet.