I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Ten – Wisdom
Today I feel a bit more guided than yesterday. I have an idea of part of what I want to do at least, but I think I shall still play it by ear.
I’ve made MANY mistakes in my life and I suspect I’ll make many more. The nice thing that comes from making mistakes is that we have to opportunity to learn from them, provided we choose that path. Sometimes I’m stuck asking myself “why, why does my life have to be this way?” I have the knowledge of why things are the way they are but not the understanding. Sometimes I find it quite difficult to be understanding with myself — after all I am stuck in a defective body. And, because of the circumstances I was raised in, I sometimes find it quite hard to be kind to myself. I think I have begun to notice when these sorts of things happen, and I do have a quicker response of shutting down the mean habits, but being kind from the start is still something I’m working on. I’m allowing myself to learn that those kinder moments feel much nicer, but it still takes time to undo a life’s worth of unkind habits.
Do you have a moment of wisdom you’d like to share?
This card was pulled from Ravynne Phelan’s Dreams of Gaia Tarot set.