I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Twenty Four – The Heart
I just finished reading Healer of the Water Monster by Brian Young this morning and cried several times while doing so. Apparently this middle grade book decided to make me feel all the feels (not that book have consciousness, but you know what I mean). I’ve been feeling somewhat melancholy for the rest of the day so far. Do you ever feel stuck in a weird feeling after having a crying session? I don’t know what to do with myself now. Maybe I just need a calm day where I focus on what’s happening in the moment to recover. I find scents sometimes break me out of that stuck place; perhaps I’ll take a candle lit bath with some scented epsom salts.
By the way, I don’t want your takeaway to be “oh dear, I’m afraid of getting that feeling by reading that book too” because I would 10/10 recommend picking it up if the book blurb sounds at all interesting. I need to take some time to decompress, gather my thoughts, and make a review for the book. I want to handle it well/with great care so it may take me a bit to get it all sorted.
This feeling I’m in is that of a good release but also of being somewhat overwhelmed. For a LARGE chunk of my life I didn’t even let myself feel my feelings and I didn’t have people around me who met my emotional needs, so dealing with these feelings now and learning how to cope with them as an adult — well, it’s a lot. That’s part of why I started doing tarot in the first place; I wanted to have a dedicated time of my day where I sit down and think about how I’m feeling and why I’m doing what I’m doing, to have intention and get back in touch with my emotions.
What do you do to cope when you’ve had a good emotional relief but are still feeling a bit overwhelmed?