I’m starting this blog series in an attempt to find my way to “chill” because yo gorl has almost no chill – only now instead of that being a personality trait it’s causing hormonal fluctuations that my body doesn’t know how to process anymore which then leads to me passing out … which is no bueno. I consider myself agnostic because I’m not sure there is/are a god/s, but I’m not going to tell you they can’t possibly exist either. I do however enjoy the idea of trying out different forms of meditation to see if any of them will work for me, which brings me to my latest adventure – using tarot cards as a point of focus for meditation. Let’s see what cards I pull today, shall we?
Ten of Earth
I drew this card in the present position which reaffirms living true to one’s self and finding peace in being the best you you can be.
If you read Episode 2, you know that on Monday I decided I had to cut some very toxic people out of my life. I never really felt like I could fully be my true self with them. Over time I kept asking myself, “Why am I keeping these people in my life? Normally I wouldn’t tolerate these kind of people at all.” Typically I’m a very “what you see is what you get” sort of person, but with them I always hid part of myself away as a means of protection. I’m sad that I had to go through what I went through to get to where I’m at today, but now that those people aren’t in my life anymore I feel a great sense of relief. I’ve embraced my ideals and enforced them, and that feels incredibly … freeing I guess is the word I’m looking for? I know that I’ve made a big change, and that change is definitely for the better.
This card was pulled from the Dreams of Gaia Tarot set by Ravynne Phelan – it’s sort of a hybrid oracle deck that I’ve really been enjoying. The accompanying book for this set really makes sense to my brain.